IPad post

I have to say that blogging from an iPad is not the easiest thing to do. BUT we are safely in Florida! and I couldn't be more relaxed. I suddenly have this huge fear of flying so last night flying out my stomach was nothing but nervous. thankfully Bobby calmed me down by making fun of the mass amount of people in the airport who were just ridculous. the anticipation is what kills me once we are in the air I'm fine although wea hit so much turberlance we took our seat belts off maybe. once. so after having a rough landing around midnight we stove in the HOTTEST line to get our cute little prieus that yes I requested! after waiting for an hour in line we finally got to the car. now ask me how long it took us to figure out how to turn the car on? since it's a hybrid and all that stuff you have to oust a button, hold this, do that just to start the car! but after driving 45 minutes To our condo the gas Gage didn't even move and that is why I requested it.

yes it is noon and we are just rolling out of bed! it feels good to not have an agenda this week. I Promised Bobby I would do my best to justbfly by the seat of my pants. I'll post tonight with some details of our first day! stay warm Michigan :)

Introducing Baby Alana all 4ibs. 8 oz. of her! Congratulations Dan and Nina!

Baby Alana born on April 14th!

:)

Easter in the Dirty D!

We spent Saturday in Detroit having Easter with Bobby's family. Thankfully it was such a beautiful and warm night we got to walk downtown. I've having some issues with my camera lately my shutter doesnt seem to be going as fast and beleive me i've tried everything that I know how to do and NOTHING is working...so all you Canon Rebel users out there please HELP! Anyway here is some shots from downtown..i'm not happy with them but they'll do.

Infertility A to Z

A. Age when you started TTC?: I was 19, he was 25.

B. Baby dancing or sex?: Sexy time!

C. Children wanted: I say 4 he says 3. I hate odd numbers and he hates evens.

D. Dogs, cats, fill in children: Two dogs (Dylan and Odie) and two cats (Pumpkin and Waffles)

E. Essential Oils, vitamins, snake oils: I've been taking pre-natals forever. I have switched it up a few times but over all the same thing.

F. Fertility meds I've taken: More things to jump start my period, stop my period, etc. We'll find out what they want to put me on next week!

G. Gain: What have I gained from infertility? : STRESS. Some pateince not much.

H. HSG (Hystosalpingogram): Just have one!

I. Infertile pet peeves: Oh I have SO many. "be pateint, you're so young!" Seeing everyone get pregnant and trying to be happy for them. "Maybe if you just stop thinking about it it'll happen!"

J. Job title: Medical assistant

K. Kids names you're agrraid will be taken by the time you can use them: Bobby's middle name Aldon. It has already been taken though. I'm sure our girls names have been too but just in case they haven't i'll keep them to myself

L. Length of time TTC: Two years

M. Miscarriages: Two...

N. Number of times you've switched OB/GYNs, REs, FSs: Ha! I have to really think about this one. I'm going to say we have literally gone through every single OB at Alleigance..so maybe 4-5.

O. Ovarian quality: Excellent

P. POAS or wait for AF: (for my non-trying friends, POAS is "peeing on a stick" and AF is "aunt flow") I am slowly leaning towards waiting for AF. Tired of dissapointment.

Q. Quote from an obnoxious fertile: "how old are you? Oh my! Sweetie you're so young. Just give it time!"

S. Sperm: As far as we know they are in great condition.

T. Time you tried naturally: One year before going to INF.

U. Uterus quality: Again, excellent.

V. Vagina: Boerd.

W. What baby stuff do you already have?: Got rid of everything after the first loss.

X. Extra, extra hear all about it! How many people know the ins and outs of our crazy TTC journey: I'm not very shy about it. I share with all.

Y. Yearly exam ( do you still go in even though someone sees your parts most months?): Absolutley!

Z. Zits: thankfully out of all the medications NONE of them have caused me to break out!

Not me Monday

I can't sleep. I am so tired but can't sleep. My teeth still don't feel better and they were supposed to. Its been a week. I have holes in the back of my mouth that (sorry this is disgusting) food gets stuck in causing me insane amounts of pain and now I have to use a syringe full of salt water to "un-plug" the holes. Not exactly an attractive thing to do..nor do I want to do this after each and every meal. I can't chew hard food anymore..maybe i'm still healing.

You don't realize how much you really use the back of your mouth while eating. I can not find a single bathing suit that I love. We set a certain amount of money aside for the things we wanted to buy prior to our big trip aka a few new suits. Now its a week and a few days away and I can't seem to pick one out. I give running out of time a new meaning.

Since this is my blog and I decide what to write I am going to allow myself to write another long, long paragraph about how frusterating it is when you are trying to make a baby and everyone else around you could do it on any given day and get pregnant but not YOU. We literally take four steps forward and six steps back. I'm tired of circling dates on the calender that I am ovulation only to cross them right back out because my period decide to take a vacation that month. This is what a conversation in my head is like on a daily-no HOURLY basis is like.
real me: I don't even want to be pregnant. I have such a flat stomach and I love not feeling nauseas!
mind me: is that a stomach cramp you have? you have GOT to be pregnant! whats that your tired at 4:34pm on a Thursday afternoon? Your pregnant! Your stomach is growling at 6am? you are SO pregnant. Ridculous much? I also find that I am trying to make 'deals' with God. example; " Okay, if I give up coffee, take my vitamens, promise to stop swaring, no more Eminem music when i'm mad, when a patient really makes me mad I won't walk out of the room with a smile on my face and than say something really rude about them to the other MA's do you think you can give us a baby then?"

I think I have touched on the relgion subject a few times on here but its just not a big part of our lives. So that fact that I am trying to make a deal with someone who I honestly don't worship on a regular basis is wrong. I know.

I read about not-me-mondays months ago and never really thought of doing them..until today. So here it goes. -I did not completley 100% milk going to the dentist today just to get some extra loving from the husband. -I also did not use the fact that there was a few inches of snow on the ground as an excuse to hibernate in my house all day. -I didn't eat frosting out of the jar today because I couldn't force myself to chew on anything relitivley healthy. Not me miss I leave for Florida in one week and need to look excellent in a swin suit! -Oh and it is definitly not me who is semi enjoying not being able to consume solid food so I can have a flat stomach for Florida. Not me miss I want to get pregnant so I better eat healthy.

On this note...I am going to do my best to fall asleep.

DIY

I'll be honest I have thought about blogging for a about a week now and just have no motivation to actually type everything out. So lets recap! I got all FOUR wisdom teeth out and it was hell. Let me rephrase..it was more than hell. I thought I would be out for 1-2 days and then be back and ready to go...no not so much. I woke up yesterday and finally was feeling like I could open my mouth and eat more than pudding and chicken noodle soup. Here's the run down from the wisdom teeth extravaganza. Monday I went in with my mom nervous as all can be I have only been put under once and I was having surgery on my nose so you can imagine the anxiety I was having about this. Everything went great I woke up and went home laid around all day and enjoyed my mom taking care of me. Now Monday night of course I was in some pain but nothing to drastic. I then notice that there is stitches in my mouth oh and one of them came out. Cue Tuesday when I drive my still puffy face back to the oral surgeon get all sorts of numbed and a brand new set of stitches put inside of my mouth. Awesome. Oh did I mention both Bobby and I were out of town for a week? So the first time we see each other (Tuesday) my face is huge, I'm starving, crappy, and just plan NOT feeling like a big homecoming. Wednesday, I'm feeling okay, still puffy, still sore, and still can hardly speak. Lucky me I have an infertility appt to follow up on blood work, my HSG test, etc. Turns out this girl is perfectly fine. Not a thing is wrong with anything in the baby making department. Awesome. I was sent on my way with instructions to have lots and lots of sexy time. I walked in with such a bad attitude I think anything that they would have told me would have been the end of the world to me. I am SO happy that nothing is wrong with me but on the other hand I wanted to walk in there and be told this is whats wrong, this is how we are going to fix it, and this is when you will be pregnant. Obviously things don't work that way. Thursday I am feeling ready to go back to work. BOY WAS I WRONG! I walk in with a wonderful greeting from my co-workers who missed me dearly and were quite worried. I didn't even make it thru lunch until yet another stitch pops out..now I am driving 45 minutes home, stopping at the dentist, and still not able to enjoy any sort of solid food. Friday I worked all day and was finally feeling back to myself. Which brings us to yesterday!

Now you may ask yourself why are you waiting till months before Bobby leaves to re-do your bedroom, and bathroom oh and somehow buy a new car, and sell a motorcycle? Because frankly that's just how the Gradys do things.

So yes we are FINALLY re-doing our bedroom the one room in the house that is specifically designed for US and we haven't touched it. I don't know if I have ever blogged about our adventures in DIY things but lets just say we don't see eye to eye on a lot of the home improvement things. Furniture we most of the time agree on and if we don't I normally just give and say fine get whatever. -Now let me pause this story and input a quick story. When we were first looking for houses we found a BEAUTIFUL, extremely low price, and in good enough condition that we could have taken out another loan and made it into something amazing. Well stubborn old me didn't want anything to do with re-doing anything. So we walked away. Mind you this house was 4-5 bedroom, 3 bath, in the city, great back yard, nice neighborhood, and close to everything we need. Complete opposite of what we have now. (don't get me wrong we made a good choice with this house too) Since we walked away Bobby never lets me forget the house that we could be in. We drive by it from time to time and then family that bought it did a beautiful job. I mean who would want a house with so many things a new family needs for $78,000?! Oh yeah, me.

Back to yesterday- After wandering around Art Van for what felt like days we settled on a bedroom set. Threw it on lay away because of course nothing is available until the end of May so why drop all that money for something we can't have now? Outlasts that's what I was thinking..not so much the husband. We got into the car and he immediately wanted to know why we didn't take the floor sample. Long story, semi short we did NOT agree on a thing. So we are back to square one.

Oh and we leave for disney in 12 DAYS! Happy Sunday

SHS!

1. Time 2. Poetry

3. Outside 4. Zoom

5. Isolation